I miss you so much, god i am drowning. You’ll never see this, i dont think you think about me anymore anyway, but i am trying in each and every way possible to let you know that i still am there, i am still longing for you, i hurt so deeply, how the fuck could the situation change this much this fast… i really thought, for some reason, that this time it would be different, that i could break my rules and break my walls down for you. why did you leave ? you just cant give up on me like that with no explaination, ali. Please, i need to know, i am never ever going to be able to turn the page if you dont. Its Lola, please send me a message, call me, meet me, i dont care, i know that you ll probably wont ever come back to me but please at least i need some form of closure. I am rotting on the inside.