im sorry i struggle so much with communication, i know you probably wont see this, but you made me happy, even if i didnt show it, even if sometimes it seemed like i didnt care or hate you, im sorry it seemed that way. you made me happy, more than anyone else ever was able to, i felt so selfish, as i bled out silently, you were the last person i thought about, and it made me sad. knowing i let you down, i promised i wouldnt off myself. but im struggling so much. i loved you so much. my Starlight. you gave me hope. i hope you find someone who IS better than me. and wasnt so negative all the time.